You are near, You are always here and I miss you everyday.

I used to

I used to think dying is the best options. 

I used to believe it would save me from my miserable life.

I was young, trouble and naive - unfortunately my journey of life is driving me insane.

That was my thought - Dying.

Amazingly, 

When I get through the rough path

I realized it is not the best option - totally NOT.

We just need to STAY alive and be thankful..

You can't stop them, just care less.

I wish you knew...

I believe I like you.

Sincerely, I do – I wish you knew.

My heart beat faster than it usually does, and it happens whenever you’re around. I am trying to not let this feelings get to me, I can analyze and control my own heart but my heart is strong - maybe it’s stubborn too.

I like you, a load.

Reality is - you are not mine. You’re belong to someone else, much more beautiful and attractive than me, much more irresistible and fashionable than me – in your own perception which I failed to impress you because I am just me, there is not much of me you can fascinated about, none of her is me.

I like every single things spill out from your lips, all the stories you’re telling me about her – of how much you loves her, it disturbs me but I’m astonish of your love to her, so deep so strong - rigid determination to make sure you will not loose her.

 

She’s lucky.

Even so I wish you were mine, I wanted you to be content with your future – your own decision. You can speak to me about anything – I am here.

It will not be a nuisance to me.